Torture

Love is hard, but it’s worth it.

What’s the worst pain you’ve ever felt? If someone had asked me this a year or two ago, I would’ve answered something juvenile or silly. Like stubbing my toe or losing a character from a movie or book that wasn’t real. Now I’ll answer falling in love. That shit hurts. It fills you so deeply with passion and happiness that you’re blinded by the shit they can do to you. They’ll hurt you or you’ll hurt them and you won’t even realise how bad it actually was until you break up. Falling in love with someone who doesn’t share the same love as you do is honestly gut wrenching. It’s bitter and lonely and makes you feel so helpless.

You go through so much with someone and you don’t want to start over with someone else. It’s torture. You don’t want to trust or open up to someone new. You want to fix things over a hundred times with your person because they’re your person. They’re who you love and you saw a future with. It’s knowing when to let go that hurts the most. Sometimes the rope is tighter and more painful around your hand from holding on then it would be to let go. So please just let go. Stop hurting yourself for the sake of someone else. If they loved you the way you wanted them too then they wouldn’t ever put themselves into the position of hurting you or losing you. Just remember who has your back at the end of the day. Hint. It’s you